there was once a boy who had dreams the size of mountains, moveable with mustard seeds. if he dared to believe. dared to conceive. an idea creating an action. knew that God was working so he never worked out fractions. the fraction of what it’d cost. he thought there was nothing to be lost. so he put on his shoes one night. no help in sight. unless he looked to the sky. and next in the mirror to see someone named I. looking in his eyes before his journey began. didn’t have to convince himself because the love and passion is what ran. him like gas in the car. getting to destinations that could be near of far. places where they say his heart stay. ducking and dodging what the darts say. darts of doubt. something he could definitely do without. as he swam in oceans named fear. looking around water he swam in only formed from a tear. when he didn’t know how to continue walking. and flying didn’t look like an option. he had no options but to continue. saying to himself, “I know there’s more in u”. as the sharks opened their jaws. his heart forgot the laws. knowing something had to happen. he felt like he had been waiting to make that happen. so he did it. he made it happen. spoke a word and it happened. changed his mind, and it happened. the current slowed down and he made his own way. forgot about what they might say. and remembered what God would say. if he never kept going. if the tears that were flowing. had forced him drown. without realizing that all of his trials made him deserving of the crown. victory guaranteed. from his worries he would be freed. and on to dry land. promised land. sweet roses and golden honey. rivers and trees with growing money. you can’t tell him…shhh. you can’t tell him…shhh. about faith not working. about the dangers lurking. waiting to eat up the focus. like locusts. making the vision blurry and not so plain. complex, ink washed out from the rain. and you can see the pain. look at what it did to him. made him stronger…wiser…better…and some kind of gold. matching the promise. and everyone’s so astonished. that their doubts and his fears couldn’t stop it. his faith was always the topic. but now they really can’t top it. and they all wanna rock it. his faith that made that dream the size of mountain move. and because he had faith he moved. and it moved and they moved. and we moved. to make room for the enourmous gift. the enemy wanted to swift. something like wheat. but he couldn’t so he had to have a seat. in the audience. tickets to watch him in His promise. now who’s next to see…?
fine. all mine. the best yet. no debt. atleast one day soon. when everything is in tune. like the jingle at the beginning of your favorite cartoon. that comes on two hours after noon. on your wooden television. super trill, no remote but a dial, see it the old school way…you got hella vision. a way of seeing things i ain’t seen in a long time. stretching my money out, it’s a long dime. made no sense but there’s nothing like a young money punch line. ran outta shit to say, fine all mine. just like i started off. and that’s what i want at all cost. that place where i first began. and the love for my dreams is all that ran. my thoughts. couldn’t get em off. creativity oozing through my pores. making my own rules with no caution, buying live animals at the grocery store. no dead meat killed by opinions. of despicable minions. that don’t matter. but only real shit flattered. by the fly ones. the real ones. the innovative ones. the dreaming and achieving ones. cuz real recognize real. and i could rhyme that with something like “i need to heal”. but there’s no scabs. only dabs. of real inspiration oozing from my knees. from where i fell in love over there, cherry bomb please. and a band aid too. a few of em. i plan on going deep. and letting the real me do more than seep. in the cracks of the places where i desire. but set them on fire. and maybe force someones fears to retire so that they can keep going . and sleep knowing that they are fine. so fine. and look in the mirror saying i’m all mine. and that’s enough. no need to bluff. and be pretentious. cuz i taste the real like a french kiss. and i kiss good. muah. lipstick on my mirror….
and in just a second. my big ol blessin. will fall out the sky. like rain and I’ll ask why. why just now, like I’m not satisfied. Like I could just die. completely happy. in my feelings completely sappy. words spilling on my shoes and falling underneath. to the bottom of my sneaks. which makes it impossible to take another step and turn over a new leaf. playing in the same grass. hoping my passion and hunger doesn’t make me kiss ass. but at the same time, some people be like “what the heck”. just a peck. if it gets me farther than yesterday, than an hour ago. and who makes the rules…for all we know. we could all be wrong. off key, singing the same song. loud, like we wrote it. sick and don’t know what the antidote is. can’t find where the hope is. left hopeless. obvious bob. wanting it so bad. what we never had. but we keep dreaming of. keep seeing, shaking hands with our nubs. cuz we cut off our hands. chop to the idea of reaching for the sky, but embracing all of the demands. while forgetting that’s the reason they exist. these arms. not to cause our brother harm. but to touch the sky. the stars. the universe. and that’s why we have a mouth to ask. and a heart that beats to the last. second. when the blessin. falls from the sky. to our feet and not our laps. cuz we’re active in the pursuit. wearing a suit. on a date with our hearts desire. catching ourselves on fire. the passion is flammable. it’s real. it’s what i feel. what we feel. so let’s keep falling in love everyday. every single day. give life to our dreams. no matter what it seems. cuz in just a second…
unplug. debug. no hug. just a tug. at the hem of his garment. on the red carpet. fancy but real. no sex appeal. no smiling faces. in all the places. you go. with all the people you barely know. wanting to be close. but at a distance praying for a discerning spirit cuz people be doing the most. ain’t real at all. just waiting to watch you fall. but you don’t blame it on them at all. it was the ones before them who did it in order to look tall. the nature of this cage. the nature of this age. shit passes by so fast that you miss the moment. but all they say is to live in the moment. i’m so confused. my sense of what’s certain is becoming abused. and in this i become nostalgic. homesick. take me back there. that place where love was real and i didn’t have to be “on”. i could turn “off”. no make up. but i’m still fine. still just gorgeous. and plain as day i get the same amount of attention that the best whore gets. cuz in this land it’s a competition. and as loud as you scream sometimes no one listens. and that quick you’re over it. sober quick. waiting on someone to see how great you are. tired of proving to yourself that you’re a star. in the sky. next to the moon. that we are all looking at. waiting to get to that next destination. trying to stay on. playing a new song. praying you can keep performing when you don’t feel like it. you can fight the “laziness” even if you don’t feel like it. cuz truth is…there’s no sloth in you. sometimes a bitch just wants to unplug. and debug. not giving out no hugs. i’m just tryna touch the hem of his garment….
Out here looking crazy. Out of body experience wearing straight jackets. Looking around trying to see what it is I’m lackin. How can I make you love me. Think more of me. Run your mind. Something like you do mine. Something like I’m in jail and not sure how to do the time. this time. Banging on the bars with my coffee mug. Trying to stay awake making sure I’m on point. Cuz you just may come around and let me out. Some time soon. Sometime around noon. Is what they say. Mid day. Not first thing in the morning when you’re fresh in my thoughts. Til I go to the mirror & remind myself that I’m a bad bitch and I ought. Not even play myself like this. Like that. And like this. Cuz I’m still clenching my fist. Palms bleeding, cut up by everything I wanna say but I aint that brave. And I suck at anything involving something that needs to be saved..or managed. So don’t take advantage. of the fact that everything comes out at once. And I look like a dunce. I look crazy. But I bet you I won’t look lazy. I’ll work…grind…and whatever else you need to make you love me. make you think of me. make you miss me. make you wanna kiss me. Mid conversation. Make you wanna start over. experience me all over again. Mid revelations. Make you think I’m the best shit ever. Even though you might have had better. Nah fuck that. You know what it is. I know what it is. Let’s just quit playing. And start saying what we feel. Be real. And stop looking crazy apart. Only in our separate hearts. And be out of our minds together. Padded walls. Straight jackets. Running each others minds. While we run alongside. You and I. He and he. You and me. Me and you. Us. We. Our. That’s a better choice of pronouns….
When it’s time will you wallow in fear? Will you fight through your tears. Tasting the salt of your pain and hard work. Hoping that someone sees you so they can jerk. You into the future where you know you belong. Becoming the song. That everyone sings. inspiring the ones who have no hope to bring. to the table. just weights on their ankles. slowing down their progress wearing hand cuffs of self doubt. loathing in the thought and the words. someone either spoke or didn’t speak. will the acid of your confidence leak and burn their insecurities. will you be their hero even when when your cape becomes your very insecurities. Will the very thing that helps you fly feel like it’s going to be the reason you die. will you learn to accept it and put it on instead of your uniform. because their so uniform. and you know you’ll stand out. stamp out. mailed to your future where you know you should be. forgetting the present is who needs you to be. everything so that the coming moments. aren’t wasted. aren’t tasted but eaten. enjoyed like it needs to be. not feared. but revered. cuz the time is slowly approaching in the shadows. and you can’t be mad though. cuz everytime the sun shines you can see her. the time. the time in your shadow. it’s here under this hot burning sun of our dreams and desires. and if you don’t appreciated then she’ll be gone. because not only is she coming but she’s here. the time. your time. the drop of a dime. she costs nothing but means everything. when you’re fighting through your tears. salty taste buds. tears and sweat. now with the copper taste in your blood. coming from your heart pumping for the love. of the reason you fight and what your fighting for. in this moment. that is here. one drop of blood. one drop of sweat. and one tear to fill up this moment. to feel up this moment. so lets not kill off this moment. by wanting the future so much….
don’t really know the best way to start so I’ll start. how prophetic when i feel like the enemy is throwing darts. at the beginning of my start. my start when i’m trying to figure out what HE put in my heart. and yes these words may sound a little holy. especially for those that know me. But I don’t think I care. I can’t, gotta keep my eyes fixed on what’s real. what’s gonna heal. what’s gonna provide. what’s gonna pay my bills. or WHO…
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Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. If you do not repost this in the next 5 mins, someone very close to you will become mad at you in the next 8 days.
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all. repost this in 5 mins or you will not meet the love of your life for 10 years.
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. Repost in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming up sometime this month.
This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible… Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive.
february is very very very accurate
and march :o
June tho ❤️
August could not be more wrong… but it says if I reblog I’ll meet the love of my life. FINGERS CROSSED
expressive in nature but aren’t we all. artists. trying not to be the one who farted. in front of the cute boy to the left. where the last one’s boxes remain. left to remind us that love is a silly game. no connect four, just three black and one red. it never makes sense. we never learned to speak french. there ain’t no we. just me. so just look and see. understand that i want it. just like u flaunt it. how fine u r. brown sugar, gimme some. i’m demanding it, gimme some. i need it. makes my shit taste better. on days when i’m drenched from the rainy weather. then u look me in the eyes. wait i’m still trapped in that place where i fantasize. that u even know my name. and feed me ice cream on date nights, frozen yogurt it’s all the same. your choice. because you’re the choice. the one i choose. the one i chose. but as soon as you looked in my direction i froze. like you even knew. that i think of you. and lock up when i see you. locked up when i see you. i forget english when i see you. fine ass. fine ass muh’fucka. waiting on me to be your fine ass muh’fucka. telling me watch my mouth cuz i kiss you with it. haha. and see i’m laughing at myself cuz i’m still here. in this place where you have no clue who i am. have no clue that i got the jams. i am the jam. that song you like to dance to. you just don’t know it yet. ain’t nobody told you. oh well. someone will soon. and until that day. i’ll remain that one. stuck. but on point everytime i see you. squeezing my cheeks. trying not to have gas. cuz it’s you to the left. but wait now you’re on my right…